- Kirsten Freeland
Stop and Return

"As above, so too below"
It's retrograde season - when many planets turn retrograde - which is technically the appearance of a planet slowing down to a stop, and then moving backwards. Symbolically a retrograde can be seen as a returning to, or a revisiting of something.
The other day I returned to the complete mess of emotions that was the year 2013. I didn’t intend to. I was looking through an old journal and fell into the whole year in review. Back then it seemed as if things were moving rapidly away from all the last moments. I couldn’t understand how he wasn’t with me anymore. Nothing seemed real because he wasn’t a part of it. I had lost my way to process life because I use to relate everything to him, through him. I longed for him to come back. There was this intense need to hit the pause button and try to find a way to go back.
Everything needs to stop.
Stop time, stop change,
Stop them growing,
Stop, so I can get you
Stop, so you can catch up
Stop, so you can change your mind
Stop, so I can say something
Stop and take me with you
Stop, so we can be in a moment
that will stop us together.
Please, just stop.
Whether it's a broader view, or the grace that only time can give, the relevance of returning to the past can be the opportunity to see things in a new way. As much as I wanted it to, nothing stopped. For even in death, as in life, nothing stops. It transforms.